Kudos for me for gathering strength to keep this page alive. Well, as for reader(s) out there. I don't have anything to whine about these past weeks. Hahaha. Flattering myself much. The reason I'm here again because I'm in such a mood to talk. Rains, coffee, cigar. Ugh, macam orang tua - tua pulak minum kopi pagi - pagi tengah - tengah hujan. Time - time macamni tak adanye aku teringat kat mana - mana skandal yang memang tak wujud pun dalam kamus hidup aku. Please. =) Okay, we'll get there.
Kerna adanya angin sepoi - sepoi bahasa jepun ni, ingin aku mencatatkan bahawa keputusan keluar 27 Mac ini. Yeah, kebanyakan member aku adalah degree so diorang tak amek port pun. Hahaha. So, nak dijadikan cerita. There is this one paper yang aku rasa aku terpaksa amek sub-paper. Well, the reason kenape aku cerita kisah ini disini adalah kerana in reality world, tak akan ada orang yang percaya. Budak rumah sewa aku percaya lah kot. That is why, sometimes don't be the center of attraction. Speaking of, in vice versa hypothesis, I just known that in some population of guys (yeah, guys pun ada puak juga.) they think I'm nerd. My colleague spill it to me and my reaction was: "I being a nerdy? A smoker, DoTA-ing, Futsal-ing, stay late most of the night kind of guy is being called nerdy. Hahaha. Hillarious." For their behalf, I would say the same thing if I met myself 3 years ago.
Back to keputusan punye cerita, 6 days and counting. Semua batch aku especially kelas aku menunggu keputusan terakhir mereka. Most of them anyway, there is a few yang masih mengejar impian mereka. Hope they suceed. As for myself, kalau aku bagitau yang aku sebenarnye dup dap dup dap menunggu keputusan, especially kalau aku pos kat facebook, "Takutnya result nak kuar!! >.<" mesti ada yang akan kate, "Alah, kau kan pandai, ape nak takutnya?" kan? Hahahahaha. So I won't tell anywhere else but here. I am so afraid yet excite about the result. There is a 50-50 chance that I end up crash and burns. Ugh. Counting. Counting.
And bila bercerita tentang jadi macam orang tua dengan kopi dan rokok ni, terasa fun jugak bercerita dengan orang yang lebih berpengalaman dalam hidup ni selain dari parent sendiri. Selama ni memang aku bergaul dengan batch aku ataupun 2 3 tahun lebih tua atau muda je. Lately ni rasa seronok dengar opinion dari mereka - mereka yang berumur 10 tahun keatas lebih tua dari aku. Tak tahu kenape. Worth a shot sometimes.
Oh well, why exactly I did post something today? Already forgot. Apparently, I don't have anything to whine these past weeks. Because life is so much better. I see it that way. Even I'm jobless, sleep late or rather not sleep at all, eat less, always in front of computer and doing nothing else. Or maybe I just got nothing to tell. Oh, and my mom was telling me something that made my jaw dropped and already halfway earth by now. She said, "Adik, mama doakan adik dapat awek lawa degree nanti." My reaction was blur about 2 and a half minute and I'm sure I've fainted the next minute. Lawak tak kelakar dari mama saya yang tersayang.
Btw, my friend broke up 3 days ago. Aha! There's a story. Some cliche' old school punye story. A player fall with a bit of a player too. I just notice that many of my friends is a player. Ugh. The guy falls hard, change into one of the good fella and then she smash it all to his face. Then he turn back to his old school badass person. Well, not to point any finger, but as I right now is kind of having trust issues with girls, I say the fault is at the girls. Teringat pulak at one of the classmate perempuan aku yang pernah tanye kat aku, "why guys ni jahat?" and kemudian dia cerita segala kisah duka beliau (aku pulak dapat satu scoop dari dia dengan tak semena - mena) sambil dia mengalirkan air mata. I ended up comforting her for half an hour sepanjang dalam bas on the way nak ke rumah tumpangan time aku nak ke cameron tu. Habis aku dipandang slack oleh classmates yang lain. Ugh, sungguh aku tetap akan kalah dengan air mata wanita. Berbeza sungguh situasi mereka berdua ni. One say, semua lelaki jahat but my friend being a guy being cheated by a girl. World is such a mess.
I guess, they'll always end up in better place. My classmate, the girl starts changing herself for the better. Proud of her. And my friend, the guy like most of any other guy in a broken heart do, forget it and throw himself to the world. If they can't, they do something stupid. Stupid enough to show that he's hurt. Hahaha. Always been there. Ugh kopi dah sejuk. As I always said to them and to myself:
Let fate fares you better as it always does.
Comes hell or high water, He is there.
Live well or live hell. You choose.
p.s:
I'm just jubilant my former paramours' jubilant. Really. =)
