End Of Part 4 Sequel (1) : Just like.

I'm updating this blog.

I'm watching Maharaja Lawak.

I'm tumblr-ing.

I'm facebook-ing.

I'm not sleeping yet.

Just like any other day.

Except today is THAT day.

The killer paper day.

The final of Final.

The day I would be free.

The last day of Part 4.

The day everything will be away.

The differences is today,

I'll do the walking.

But. There's always be 'but'.

All that is after both effing paper that killing my mood.

And the fact that I know,

I didn't do enough.

I didn't struggle enough.

And I'm not gonna be

'Dean-List Boy' anymore.

The higher you fly to sun,

The more you HURT when you fall.

End of Part 4 Sequel (2) : Most Lazy Day?

Today.

Last day to study.

Tomorrow and the day after that,

Last Final Examination.

After that,

I'm going home.

And being there for 3 weeks.

But why is today,

I don't have the mood to study?

Even when I'm sucks at all 3 subject.

Damn it.

Maybe. Maybe after I cheer up.

Then I would start studying.

Err.....-.-

Oh hey!! I found new song of Eminem. It is called - I Need A Doctor. But when I start looking at internet, it already out at media. Ceh. Baru nak jadi orang yang mule2 jumpe lagu baru eminem. And by the way, sape - sape yang minat eminem / dr.dre, boleh try find their new movie called Shady Talez. Tapi lagu die xbest sangat pun bile bace lirik. Cite pasal die ngan dr. dre je.

Ok. New resolution. Lepas mandi, baca buku terus. Sampai malam. Boleh x? Boleh aje. Ey. Fizzy kot. -.-

End of Part 4 Sequel (3) : No Need To Worry.

I got two days left including today.

For studying three subject.

Ecomal.

Banking Operation.

Business Communication.

So, the question is :

Should I be worry?

No. I don't think so.

Why?

Because I am Awesome.

Ha-ha-ha.

Damn it.

Dah la aku masih ngadap laptop member tengok benda bukan - bukan. Yelah. Baru melepaskan tension paper Law la katekan. Eh. Jangan pikir lain lak. Aku tengok tumblr lah. Takde. Takde. Aku baik. Walaupun takde orang yang masih sedar dalam bilik ni. Sume dah out. Tapi. Tapi. Tapi.... 

Walhal aku ingat nak tido awal, bagun awal dan study awal. Musang tetap musang pada akhirnya. Apekah yang akan berlaku keatas final aku kali ini. Adoi. Sakitlah aku macamni. Stadi aku semester ni gile harooom. Tapi kalau aku cakap camtu semua tak percaya. Walaupun aku boleh digelar "Budak Dekan", kau ingat senang nak maintain reputasi? Ahahaha. Susah tau. -.-" Bullshitnye ayat. Lepas paper Law, aku rase aku mereng 3 kali ganda dari biasa. Err....

Anyway, aku ada beberapa hari lagi nak ucap BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE kat semester 4. Tak sabar nak semester 5 pulak. Mesti banyak adventure. Please. Please. No repeat paper la aku. Please. Mati aku kalau tak. Sudah - sudah. Aku nak berhenti madah - madah pujangga akustik gila keroncong tahap purnama rindukan mentari. Sebab jap lagi nak azan sudah. Tidur. Tidur. Eh. Solat dulu. -.-"

p.s :

I always screaming your name.

But you seems don't hear anything.

Oh wait. You can't.

You have been delusionized by LOVE.

And it is not mine.

Dugaan dariNya.

Aku sedar kelayakan aku untuk berkata tentang agama itu lemah. Dan aku sedar ramai yang mungkin  pandang serong jika aku berkata tentang agama, tentang Islam. Namun begitu aku sekadar mengingatkan diri sendiri dalam dugaan serta cabaran yang diberikan olah Allah kepadaku. Subhanallah.

Surah Al-Baqarah Ayat 214:

Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, "When (will come) the Help of Allah?" Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allah is near!

Surah Al-Baqarah Ayat 216:

Jihad (holy fighting in Allah's Cause) is ordained for you (Muslims) though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.

Percayalah wahai sahabat - sahabatku. Allah itu maha mengetahui sedangkan aku dan kamu sangat cetek pemikirannya dan sangat terhad pandangannya. Dugaan itu ibarat api yang membakar besi yang berkarat. Selepas dibakar, yang tinggal adalah besi yang elok sahaja. Subhanallah. Maha Suci Allah.

End of Part 4 Sequel (4) : The way it is.

Again.

The universe keeps pulling my leg.

Between madness and insanity.

That's where I am now.

Seems like it still not enough.

Today, Law examination.

I thought I am prepared.

But I was mistaken.

Badly.

Worst part is : 

For every hardness-ship I've been for this semester,

Come pouring down to me at once.

All the fake smile I've been showed.

To prove that I'm strong.

All the anger I've been hiding, content.

Have bursting out at once.

Damn it Law paper.

You are killing my mood,

my grade and my hope.

p.s :

Is that the way it is now.

I rather walk alone.

Because in the end, I'll always do.

So don't blame me if there is no disclosure between us. In fact with everyone else. The last time I open up and giving full disclosure to someone else, it ended up ugly. The second last time I opened up to someone, that particular someone knows me really well, I ended up closing the deal and walk away. Even the readers of this bullshit can be confuse with what I'm trying to tell. So don't try to understand me if you can't. You will ended up failing my high expectation.

End of Part 4 Sequel (5) : Just One

Remember stitch? He is just cute in his own way. Like you.

I am simple.

I only need one.

I didn't ask too much aint I?

Today I found only one.

reason to keep walking.

reason to stay sharp.

reason to keep confident.

The only one reason I need.

Is :

Carry mark LAW aku tinggi!!

Despite 3 subject aku lowest.

Hanya satu sebab je aku perlukan.

Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah.

Giving me another chance.

p.s :

Time really can heals a broken heart. I can't really felt what I felt about you before. All that left about you in me is my ADMIRATION.

I'm moving one.

Give me just one reason,

and I'll turn back immediately.please do.

I'm just really sleepy right now. Time to sleep.

End of Part 4 Sequel (6) : Those two.

Between those two.

I have to choose.

Within a stipulated time.

But if I take time in choosing too long.

It consumed me.

Both are important.

Both have a great risk of not choosing.

How can I choose?

If those two are really important?

oh LAW.

oh FIN.

how can I ever read both of you?

at the same time?

Within these days?

p.s : Aku da semakin lali untuk study sorang. Semakin lali dengan dugaan. Semakin lali dengan tak ramai member. Semakin lali dengan segala perbuatan - perbuatan mereka semua. Kerana aku yakin aku Awesome. Da aku sentiasa boleh bergerak dengan sendiri. Tidak terlalu dependant pada sesiapa. Walaupun tiada yang memahami. Cara aku, hidup aku, gaya aku, pemikiran aku. Semuanya unik. Da hati aku untuk orang yang boleh memahami keunikannya yang tersendiri. Kerana aku Limited Edition. Eh? Repekan apekah? Mungkin terlaulu banyak baca undang -undang sampai nak muntah. =_="

End of Part 4 Sequel (7) : I am afraid

Again. For the first time. It always been that way this semester. I don't know why. For the first time I felt really - really can't score. For 3 semester, the minimum requirement for me is 3.00 pointer. Why O why this semester the maximum I can achieve is less than 3.00 pointer? Maybe I have 2 subject with 4 credit hour. And both subject is reading. You know if reading, I'm not interested enough and I won't make it. Just like history when form 5 and SPM. Really sucks at reading subject. Tapi kalau baca novel, no 1 dunia plak. Tak kira tebal mane, english mahupun malay, telaah sampai xingat esok.

Law. This is it. The final moment that I've been waiting for. After all the test, quiz and assignment. Final will conclude evertything. But. After 3 days reading Law, why I felt nothing stuck in my head? Like I'm not really reading. Damn.

Fin. Two days including today, this subject will be a substitutes for Law. Just temporarily. That will gives me one more day to study Law before I pour it out a piece of paper. Dua - dua paper ni aku target lulus je. For the first time aku rasa sangat - sangat takut dan cuak.

And in addition, for not getting another dean list. Harap dijauhkan lah. If I fail to get it this time, sia - sia lah 3 semester aku dean list. Mesti aku akan terkilan gila. Sebab akan punah harapan aku tuk dapat Anugerah Naib Canselor. 

p.s :

I guess, I don't really move on.

End of Part 4 Sequel (8) : Joke of the Semester.

There always first time in everything right?

Today is the first time it has been this way for me.

Although maybe some of you said it wasn't such a big deal.

It is a joke.

From the universe especially for me.

I felt really special for your joke Mr. Universe.

Ha-ha-ha.

Yes. It is a sarcastic laugh.

Because it is so damn funny.

When I am the lowest bearer of carry mark in class.

Although most of the GROUP assignment made by me.

Alone. Not grouping. Alone.

But I got the lowest mark in class? 

How funny can it be?

Thanks for making my day Mr. Universe.

Despite all the thing I have to remember for my exam.

You still make your time for me.

And this effing broadband is killing my mood.

Sigh. -.-

I just remembered. I always leave a comforting word for them who are not strong enough to facing a tough day like I do now. But, why is no one give me any when I need one? That's why I've choose to not stop smoking because cigar keeps accompany me in whatever situation I'm in.

I don't choose to be strong.

I really want to be in someone arms and cry.

But I can't in a way of logic.

So, I had to be strong.

So, I just put my official face again and tell myself any comforting word I can find. And no one. No one except my blog reader(s) know what I'm feeling right now. Jadi, jangan tanye aku "apsal dow kau sem ni?", "Rugi dow kau kalau xdapat dekan lagi kan?" ataupun "Boleh dekan lagi x? I know you can't do it". No. You didn't know my capability. Only I know what I'm capable of. So, stop pressuring me. 

End of Part 4 Sequel (9) : Asking or Begging

Past act. The last time I remembered it I make my friend super mad and I close my social network account for 8 days. This time I made someone cry because of me. Why is everything I done will lead to hurting someone? This time, I ask for forgiveness. For everything I had done whether known or unknown, on purpose or non purpose. But I don't think it that hard to ask for forgiveness. 

Lately, I have been asking myself about how egoistic I am. But. None of my friend can give a truthful answer. No one. I know I am an egomaniac. Sort of. But I don't know how and I don't know how to change it. The best  way that I could think of is asking for forgiveness although it wasn't mine. Despite all this, all that happen is someone getting angry, annoyed or worst, cry. Like today.

Maybe I should stop on not being ego.

Continuing the story about past act. I know I won't let go of the past. All I can do is except it as a part of my life.  

But everything happen for a reason right?

Well, after being so damn emotional about it. All I need is a smile to put in my face. Or a laugh to pretend nothing happen. 

p.s : 

source : Tumblr.

End of Part 4 Sequel (10) : Perfect Moment

This pic remembers me of my old C902. Damn universe.

18 April. Time moves fast. Really fast that sometimes I wish it could go slower so I can felt every second longer. I still remember the days of last days of Part 3. But now, it already have gone months away. Starting from this day, I'll do a countdown how much longer I have in Part 4. I have 9 days left after today. I know I should studying LAW right now instead of updating this particular blog. But I feel that if I don't keep on forgetting everything else, I'll lost every moment pass my life even if it hurts so damn much. 

I'll take an exam on 24th with LAW, 27th with Ecomal, 28th with FIN and MGT. This time my examination schedule is really - really sucks. 

It is. One of my friends that knows me inside out called yesterday. We talk so damn much, I don't even realize it has been two hours. Peliknya, yang bercakap dalam telefon dengan aku adalah LELAKI. Pagi - pagi lak tu. Aku rasa, awek aku pun [if ada] tak kan dapat rasa cakap lama - lama dalam telefon sebab mesti dia da tido dulu. macam sekarang ni lah. Aku punye lah ingat nak tido awal sebab nak bangun esok study LAW, last - last tetap jugak tak tido. Sampai kul 5. Memang aku dapat subuh la kan. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is. What we conclude in our conversation is so damn true.

If you wait too long for the perfect moment,

the perfect moment itself will pass through you.

p.s : For you, I give an exception. I'll wait for you because

The longer you wait for it,

the better it is when you get it.

but,

So, I don't even get an answer. Every answer gives more question. Maybe I should just stop thinking about every little thing in everything I think and focusing on my final exam.

April Trilogy : Fucking Pretending

Kerana wajah aku walaupun tak hensem, banyak jerawat, dan lain - lain lagi, ia tetap satu anugerah Allah kepada aku. Bayangkan kalau aku xde muka. mesti takut kan? -.-" Jadi hantu cak pom pom nanti susah. =) So, aku akan selalu hiasi wajah aku dengan seukir senyuman. Namun aku manusia yang tidak jauh dari kesilapan. Tapi, saat aku sedar aku tidak senyum, aku akan senyum juga.

p.s : 

I'm sick of all non-existence bullshit that my mind makes up.
especially about you.

A Place Called Home.

It raining outside.

Currently at home.

Reminds me of reality.

How I've grown, a lot.

Sometimes I felt kid again.

Telling story to mom.

Having conversation with dad.

Having a race with local people.

Looking out again at window,

realizing how much I've carried

the weight of the world.

Our world.

Looking back, I know

how much I've asked them

to understand me.

Instead I've forgot,

how much I didn't think

how to be in their shoes.

mom, dad.

please forgive me.

Hujan itu rahmat Allah. Tapi kadangkala ia mengundang kesepian.

p.s : Please, I'm begging you. Stop showing in my dreams. Because, when you do, I can't stop thinking about you. And please, in my dream if you insist on coming. Please stop taking my heart with you and vanish into thin air. Maybe I'm just missing you.

April Trilogy : Bursting Bubble

This is known as danbo.

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Mengasihi

Almost everytime in these days.

I kept telling myself.

that I am strong

and it'll be okay.

And it feels chasing a bubble.

you run as fast as you could

just to touch one bubble

but as soon as your finger reach it,

it burst. 

isn't it sucks?

April Trilogy : Fucking Truth

Let's me try my best not to curse.

I'm not doing anything.

I'm not feeling anything.

I'm not saying anything.

As it doesn't mean anything.

Because I'm a sick cosmic joke.

For the whole day,

All I want to do is lying around.

not doing anything,

not even thinking to do anything.

In everything I do,

I try and try to realize,

that I lost my important thing.

Accepting that fucking truth,

is fucking hard.

Tell you what,

I want to hear my music collection.

I want to use my own broadband. 

I want to text somebody.

I want to call people.

I want to wear a earphone in class.

I want to edit my damn picture collection.

I want to watch HIMYM collection.

I want to use picnik and uploaded to my damn blog.

I want to write my damn feeling in my phone.

I want to read past message from them.

I want to remember my friends birthday.

I want to remember my friends telephone number.

I want to know my friends address.

I want to know my friends Identification cards.

I want to see again all my picture collection.

All information that I need in my Compaq CQ40.

I want to just set how long I can hold my breath using my W995.

I want to do all the stupid things with my phone.

If I list all the thing I can do using my own phone and laptop,

it'll be long and hard to write.

The damn truth that it has been fucking gone.

I can't do what I can do and want to do without both of it.

And it has been A FUCKING AWESOME DAY.

Both of it have always been there.

when I lost my mind,

when I lost my consciousness,

when I scattered my pride,

when I recollected it back,

when I'm sick of all the things around me.

when I'm sad, when I'm happy, even when I'm feeling empty.

And to know that something that always been there for me all these time,

has fucking gone,

all I felt is empty and cold.

p.s : All I can do is regain my believing in 'Everything happens for a reasons' and it'll be alright. I just need a helping hand. And it doesn't seems hope is recommended at this point.

April Trilogy : Worst start.

It just seconds ago I'm having a great laugh.

For having such a beautiful memories.

And having friends watching each others back.

I've thought that I was having the last laugh.

But.

This fucking and damn universe.

Won't let me stay the way it is.

I know about our little bet Mr. Universe.

You can do whatever you want.

I won't budge.

I won't stand down.

I won't give up.

I won't stop being awesome.

Even if you take away,

my precious memory in my Laptop.

Even if you take my damn "just a month ago phone"

And along side, you take every moment I treasure away with it.

Even you turn my life upside down.

Even  when you know that people doesn't realize how painful it is to be at my shoes.

Even when you know there's no one I felt easy to share with.

Even when my so called love life is fucking killin' me.

Even so, you always do what you got to do,

And.

Even with all the curse I've said that is too much.

I can, although barely

still smiling, still joking like there's nothing happen

Because I still believing in

The Most Greatest Power Of All

Allah S.W.T

That Everything happen is for my best.

Even though I can't see it now.

But remember, pandangan manusia itu sangat terbatas.

p.s : Tapi aku still rasa sedih sebab segala apa yang ada dalam laptop aku telah hilang. Segala rahsia yang terkandung dalam hidup aku, taktik aku, gaya aku, pedoman aku, kenangan aku, perasaan aku, cara aku, gambar aku, banner blog aku, segala - galanya ada dalam laptop tu. Kenapa aku yang jadi mangsa? Walaupun ada 2 lagi jenis laptop yang jauh lebih mahal dari laptop aku bertebaran di lantai hanya menunggu masa dibawak pergi? Kenapa laptop aku juga? Kenapa hanya barang aku yang hilang berbanding budak bilik yang jauh lebih kaya lagi raya berbanding aku? Adakah kerana aku insan terpilih? Mungkin. 

Cerita Tertangguh - Seminar MKT269.

Current song : -

Current mood : Letih balik BNM

Mari dengar / baca cerita tentang seminar Business Communication yang telah dibuat oleh kelas aku dan telah menyebabkan kelas aku terselamat daripada membuat Mock Interview. Pada beberapa minggu lepas, kami telah ditugaskan untuk membuat seminar / ceramah tentang bagaimana hendak membuat resume dan cara - cara pemakaian ketika hendak menemuduga.

Nak dijadikan cerita, kami sekelas menjadi Exco - exco meriah yang membuat tugasan - tugasan tersebut. Kelas aku sahaja okay? Sebab kelas aku spesel. Terbaik and the best. Mestilah sebab ada aku. Pfffft. Perasan. Okay, apabila kami semua ni dah diberikan kerja masing -masing. Aku macam biasa amek jalan mudah menjadi exco flyers dan banner. Walhal aku lagi hebat kalau jadi exco multimedia / photographer. Mesti lagi market. Tapi xnak lah. Yelah, bab komputer- komputer dan segala macam media yang ada dalam dunia zaman sekarang yang makin rumit dan pelik ini kan. Namun, aku xnak amek tugas tersebut. Aku lagi suka kerja disebalik tabir. 

Tapi, last - last kerja multimedia tu aku jugak yang buat.Aku bukan mengungkit. wakpe nak ngungkit, kalau aku ngungkit aku dah jaja nama dah. tapi aku tak, sekadar memberitahu diri sendiri / to future fizzy. Huhahehui~ Anyway, tambahan lagi, kerja - kerja mengambil gambar juga dilakukan oleh aku, thats why aku always xde dalam gambar kan? Perasan x? Tak perasan? hah. Ni buktinya.

As you can see. Aku xde. wait, ni bukan sebab aku yang amek gambar. Tak. Ni sebab aku dah chow dulu. Balik bilik hisap rokok keluar makan dengan member lagi best. Ni lah gambar mereka - mereka yang bertungkus lumus dalam menjayakan program ini. Yeah!! Termasuk aku lah okay. Dan ini bukan diedit oleh aku okay. Aku malas nak edit gambar yang xde aku kecuali ada reason - reason tertentu. Hehehehehe.

Anyway, it has been a great event. Lecturer said so. So, for our reward, lecturer grant us a wish that is no mock interview will be held and marks for all student in our class is full marks. Yay for us eh?? Dan, habislah sudah kelas Business Communication. Thanx miss!!

Nak tengok aku x? Jeng3.....

Aku dan date aku pada Dinner haritu. Jap, apsal ada awek member aku nyemak uh??

Lihat mataku, BIRU kan.....? and that is Sya, photographer import kat Dinner haritu jugak.

And this is me. Jambu version. Muahahahahaha. 

Aku akui. Kelas aku memang hebat - hebat belaka kan? Walaupun banyak masalah dalaman. banyak sebenarnya, tapi still hebat. Yeah!! JBM1124B. Kau tetap dihati walaupun namamu sering berubah, tidak kira D1D2, D2D2, D3D4 mahupun JBM1125A. Kau masih tetap dihati. Especially for the guys yang akan duduk serumah ngan aku sem depan. [harapnyalah] You guys classmate boys yang the best!!

- THE END -

p.s : 

-.-"

If, just if you could turn back time. Would you turn it back from the first time we met? I guess not. Coz at this mean time, you rather not turn your back and face me although I'm just right behind you.

I stand by with what I've done.

It was Bold and Romantic.

Although it consuming my vitality.

Forfeit.

Current Song : -
Current Mood : Fin? Apekah?

Forfeit the game.

Before someone takes you out.

And takes your name.

Takes your shame.

Alalalalalalaa. Comey kucing ni.

Right? When you think you can't do it. Just quit. But, in case if you think you REALLY can't do it. As for me, I rather do it like this :

Quitters never Win.

Winners never Quit.

But one who doesn't quit and still aren't winning,

are pretty DAMN STUPID.

So, is there anyone want to do stupid things with me?

Don't you think? I think so. So....it's up to you whether u think something you do is futile or it is worth the shot. But still, perseverance worth a shot. sometimes. or is it usually?

p.s : 

I'll see you when you get there.

If you ever get there.

Something About ME.

Current Song : Where Everybody Knows Your Name - Gary Portnoy

Current Mood : Half pessimist.

Yup. I wanna share something despite all the bullshit I received these days. But, just ignored it coz I'm Awesome. Here's two picture about month and day I born. But, I didn't believe it too much although most of it were true. Damn.

Klik untuk mata yang sihat.

Well, all I can say is, love the part 'curang', 'kurang kerjasama', 'mudah mencari pasangan lain' dan 'tidak jujur' tu. Really. Well, okaylah. agak - agak korang lah kan. Aku macamtu x? Well, every person ada pandangan yang berbeza - beza. Aku da kate aku jahat dari dulu lagi. Tak mau percaya, then kalau aku lukakan hari korang jangan salahkan aku lak. Hahahahahaha. Next.

Klik untuk masih menjaga mata.

Ummm. Yup. Aku perasa dan mudah tersinggung. aku suka menyendiri dan aku lagi suka duduk rumah. That's why bila aku dengar ayah pernah nak jual rumah dan amek rumah sewa, aku rasa sedih sangat. Mesti xde orang tau kan? Tapi abg imy tau. tapi tu cite lame. Rumah tu tetap jadi milik family aku jugak.  Okay, about ramah dan lemah - lembut tu ada sedikit kebetulan. And yes aku juga benci kalau aku di-reject dan dikhianati. Just like now. Walaupun 'dikhianati' is not the right word. And it even not the right situation also. Teeeeeeeeeeet. Okay. Salah aku. Dan aku juga terburu - buru dan tidak sabar. Bersikap pesimis tentang masa depan. Sering mengalah sebelum mencuba. Just like this Final and upcoming Test 2 FIN263. Really - really pessimist about it. And setuju dengan ayat akhir sekali just like what my friend had told me. Aku tak boleh hidup tanpa ada seseorang dalam hidup aku. Fine. Salah aku jugak. 

But to be honest, I don't care. Coz I'm Awesome. LAME!

Sorry lah. lagu lame xde wat official video. But, the song is nice. Not great. Just nice. Simple and pure.

I think that's all for today. wait, why I made this post again? Shit. I forgot. hahahahahaha. 

p.s : Really? Through me? Grrr.... Don't you wanna know about me? If you don't why go after it through me? Meanie!

You never walk alone. - Liverpool

Current mood : Ready for another TEST.

Current song : senyap - sunyi.

Okay. I know I should be reading books about how Malaysia is very successful in their economy instead of updating the stupidest thing I ever made kan. Macamlah esok Test Ecomal die tanye : What is your mood today? pfft. Agak2 kalau tanye, jawapan ape yang betol ek? Errr...-.-

Yup. Esok aku test Ecomal. Beberapa hari lepas, LAW telah aku lalui dengan dasyatnya. Bagai Tsunami melanda kota hati. Ish. Tak henti - henti lah test sane, test sini. And this Ecomal, I don't even know how to tackle this thing. It's such a bloody difficult this semester. Pffft. 

It even more difficult this semester when I always walks alone. Not ALONE, alone. How should I put it delicately? Single. No. I didn't mean in any kind of relationship. I just study alone. Thinking alone. Going to class alone. Get ready alone. Going exam alone. Walks out of exam alone. And it makes its more hard than past semesters where I always in a group no matter in which group, I always have someone to talk to about study, examination and test. But. Maybe, this is the best for me as Allah have said that what's happen is always the best for me right?

I wish that somebody take would my hand.

I just want some holiday. Ada sape2 nak bawak aku g cuti - cuti Malaysia x? G tepi pantai dan menghadap angin bayu laut yang damai, dengan kaki bermain dengan pasir, cuaca malam yang damai, xde bunyi - bunyi kereta ataupun hiruk - pikuk bandar dan berada bersama someone yang memahami. Ugh. I miss my family when my father still works at CIMB. I miss our time at Pulau Tioman, La Cemara and Tanjung Sepang. Damn.

I would say that "I love you".

If I thought that it would change your mind

But I know that it's too late,

you already change your mind.

Boys dont Cry - The Cure

p.s : Aku setuju sangat ape yang cuba disampaikan oleh Mr.Khairul disini.