Certain.

This is deep. Come, and see me. I got a message for you and I hope this message arrive to the very one I've been meaning to see in the future. You see, the war between two side has always in me since I was little boy. And I can tell you one thing, one side is winning. It always are and I hope you are going to do something. Save me and help me in helping you. Give me some reason. As I always lost to find. Mid-life crisis. Ha-ha-ha. Forgive me in being so shallow. 

It's kind of ironic that I can't choose my triumph.

I can only choose where I stand when the quills of destiny takes place.

And hope that I strong enough to answer.

This is just some mumbling. Take it like this, kill or be killed. If I'm not gonna do something, something gonna happen to me. I can't wait and dodge all the bullets. I gotta to strike that gun down. And maybe this is the only way I have. Tsun Szu has quotes, "Sometimes attacking is the best defense". Yeah, I read some quotes from The Arts of War. I learn quickly and comprehend life and this is my way of life or so I thought. Maybe I pick a bad choices. So be it.

People Person.

Current song: Heartless - The Fray

Current mood: Angguk - angguk ikut melodi boleh dikira mood tak?

Once a while back, they said to me. I'm not someone to talk to. It smashed my face right there. Then I learned overtime using the hard way to heard what they say. Yes, my life is a closed book. So why should they tell me anything, or so they say. Then I learn to read people. Literally. Because they said with my agreement that everything is with reason. Including people gesture, how they smile, they talk, they think, even they moves has meaning. Even without their own consciousness. And as a knowledge researcher, my curiosity is a bit above average. But I can tell one thing, I can't make sure what are the reason behind all that with just their body language, attire or whatever. So I got to opened up a bit. To make sure what my hypothesis are, I got to ask eventually. Yes, I turned out to be fearsome. Ha-ha-ha. Fear me.

Using these knowledge, I got to know one story today. My curiosity pays off eventually. I just had to give off some time. So a friend came today. Alone. Tak pernah - pernah jejak rumah aku kalau ape - ape. Biasa terus je ke tempat lepak. I know he got story to tell, unconsciously. So there I was, all ears. I'm glad that I'm the one he turned into when he got something yang berbuku di hati. Two hours, many things that we talk about including a story that I relentlessly try to ask again and again. So there, proven and lawyered. I opened up a bit and they will too. Lagipun, what are friends for, ye tak? Cuma...

One of the favorite quotes from one of my favorite song.

Anyway, I'm still at my memory lane today. But this time I got to remind myself that everything has a domino effect. Trust is important, and if you trust Allah, you know that everything will fall into it's place. Even if it's hard to accept that certain event happen. And that event had to occur so that the next event take their place. It's like domino, one domino has to fall before the other one fall. Macam dalam cerita FlashForward, si villain Dyson Frost yang mati awal - awal tu cakap. So, friendly reminder to myself: Don't worry bro, no matter how hard it seems, it had to happen before good things take places. Eventually.

You'll never reach perfection because there's always room for improvement.

Yet all the way to perfection you'll learn to get better. Ain't it?

p.s:

That feeling still exist no matter how I deny. The owner of a white car. It's not like, definitely not love. Just miss.

Intoxicated.

Ini entri pelik. Walaupun aku dah berkata bahawa update blog selalu menunjukkan bahawa hidup aku xde life. Sekarang ni memang xde life pun, jadi xsalahla kalau nak update pun kan. Okay, kelakar sebab aku saje carik alasan untuk back up diri sendiri. Okay, nak cakap dalam bahasa Inggeris lah. Praktis tuk Muet nanti 19 haribulan.

Current mood: Still in memory lane.

Current song: Club Hitz with Jakeman & Skeletor

Dear Allah, between most of others, you know me better. And as a weak slave of yours, I always questioning about what and why. Although I believe that everything happen for a reason, dan sesungguhnya fikiran aku sangat cetek berbanding-Mu. But, I felt curious when you gave me this feeling tonight. A long gone one or so I thought. Perhaps it did not go away at the first place, it always there. Maybe I just didn't notice it. Tak pernah - pernah selama aku ada facebook aku stalk facebook orang. Really. But today, aku stalk facebook orang. Betolla suatu masa dulu aku kata kau memang buat aku keliru dan bercelaru. Even it's long ago, aku masih keliru dan celaru disebabkan kau. I should have move on by now or so I thought. I hope it's just another fling that soon to be forget because I don't want this feeling mingle around me. As I know it would be hard to lose once it starts to stay. And of all memory including good or bad about you. The one that always vivid is your smile. Jangan sampai intoxicated sudah lah. Ugh. Go away. It haunts. Grrr. Well, I got to say one thing though : Fate has fares you better. Glad to know.

And when I start posting Danbo. Btw, that car is the answer if you ask who.

Dan bila aku wat entri teka teki macam - macam selalu ni, aku nak ingatkan. It's dangerous being stereotype. Rule number one in science behaviour is never assume. Tanye la tuan punye badan, walaupun 90% aku tak kan bagitau what's the meaning and makes all left there behind is to stereotype. Betul la orang kate hati aku keras. Batu. Kering. Simbah air tak basah. Seems that my life was sooooo wrong but the same time I felt sooooo right. Hahaha. Funny. Life is. Tell me I'm stupid, I just a brat who just won't stop.

Dan bila aku masuk memory lane ni bukannya aku stays sane dua tiga tahun menikmati dan melayani the "What if" game. Sedangkan dalam hadis pun ada sebut ianya permainan syaitan. Bila aku masuk dalam memory lane ni satu je yang buat aku tercampak semula ke realiti:

If you forget of what you were, you'd never be grateful of what you are. 

You must say grace with what you are now, and nonetheless before.

Sometimes that is what we tend to forget.

Thanks lah.

Been to Guatemala and back by feet. Alive.

Bila ditanya kepada ibu, ibu pun berpesan :

Adik, mama harap awak jangan sampai jadi pungguk rindukan bulan tau.

Hehehehehehehe. Baik bu. Ni cuma sementara je ni. Percayalah...=)

Illusion.

Salam pagi kepada sang mentari yang beri aku sinaran Vitamin C ke muka. Terasa hangat wajah aku yang langsung tak terasa dingin peluh yang tak mengalir. Akhirnya aku buat keputusan untuk kembali menghadap laptop dan mengunjungi blog yang diprivasikan ini. Wait, ape cerita aku buat ayat - ayat skema tahap petala ni. Ish, aku menggumam sendirian lagi. Ah, tak salah sekali dua kala aku menggunakan ayat buku, kalau selalu mahunya aku kene gula dengan para pembaca. Lagipun, siapalah yang membaca. Boleh dikira gune kalkulator. Biarlah begitu, ada baiknya.=) 

Who want to pull me from the shadow of yesterday?

And that's it. Sumpah kelakar. Mukadimah panjang macam Tembok Besar Cina, isi cuma senonet Mydin kat JB. So, I leave it as that. It's up to reader interpret it. Umum. Sejak Barney Stinson dah tak mengulang ayat "When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story." ni, aku pun dah tak reti nak ulang - ulang ayat tersebut. Well, I'm expert in switching off my feeling. By being able to do so, my life isn't such a mess. I learn over time that when it is switch on, it always get bloody messy. So, sue me in being heartless. 

p.s :

You think of leaving and afraid you didn't have some reason to be missed. Me too. 

Benarlah.

Current mood: Going into memory lane.

Current song: 5 o'clock - T-pain ft. Wiz Khalifah & Lily Allen

Benar la bila orang kate kita ni manusia biasa, aku ni manusia biasa yang banyak khilafnya. Banyak silapnya. Pernah kata ingin berubah namun tidak juga berubah. Memang salahnya dari aku sendiri. Pintu hati dah diketuk berkali - kali namun hanya hati yang dah gelap tu susah nak bersihkan. Memang bukan mudah, namun tidak juga mustahil. Masih begitu juga. Tunggu apa tak tahu lah. Takkan sampai malaikat izrail datang melawat kot? sudahlah, tak mahu cerita pasal ini. Nanti takut orang kate. 

Dan benar lah orang kate, bila sorang - sorang ni mudahlah nak masuk memory lane. 10 hari kat rumah yang mendung tak ada orang ni cepat je aku masuk ke stor gemburkan semua memori - memori lapuk itu keluar. Kalau tidak masakan aku tido dengan cencorot comel aku. Bila layan memori - memori tu mulakan otak aku berputar ligat dengan satu permainan syaitan. The What If game. Ugh. Lagha je semua pemikiran - pemikiran aku sebab otak aku ni cetek je. Sungguh.

Juga benar la Mr. Universe ni buat propaganda palsu dengan aku. Saat - saat ni memang aku tengah allergic lagu yang memberi kesan mendalam, tapi tu lah yang keluar kat hitz.fm ni kan. Saje testing pemikiran cetek aku. Btw, sejak Mr. Kay bagi pinjam broadband hampir hari - hari aku buat benda alah luar alam ni. Terasa lifeless je hidup aku ni. Lagi - lagi bila hanya bertemankan Canyon.

p.s:

To me, everyone has two side. So if ever I could, I want to learn you from both side. Not only you, but everyone.

Pulang dari Azerbaijan.

Sebab button Fn aku kat lappy aku ni meragam semula, rasa macam tak nak taip panjang - panjang. Harapnye lah. Hahahahahaha.

Current mood: Menunggu.

Current song: Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes ft Adam Levine

Aku terpempan, sebab tu aku jalan - jalan kat Azerbaijan. Aku daki gunung Shahdagh. Asalnye nak pergi ke Quba tapi tersesat kat sane pulak. Sekarang ni baru sampai kat rumah. Penat kot...-.-

Let me get one thing clear, I am up to no good. Anything that pump whatever in my vein is either dead or has turn to darkness. Maybe semua orang akan tidak bersetuju dengan aku, but I do one thing. I do anything to survive. Even though that anything means leaving, being selfish, sarcastic, or just being plain lying bastard. Is it? Aku terlalu banyak berlakon sampai lupa watak asal. Aku terlalu banyak menipu sampai I'm living a big fat lie. So, welcome to my dark side. Memang Anugerah Pemutar Belit Negara aku yang lobi. Hahahahahahaha. I always live in the camouflage, hiding from the enemy create by my own. Bukan ape, ada kawan aku tanye kat aku, is it wrong in being selfish. My answer is simple, we human is thriving for survival. So live my friend. Live. By all means.

Keep going to survive. That's all it has been.

The universe change me into that kind of person. A guiltless twisted liar. Also a mad genius.

p.s:

I want someone like Addin Shah or Minn Edina. But can I ever be AO or even Benz Aliff?

Not good enough.

I never thought that I will go through this phase again.

They say to me, tell them what’s wrong

Because I told them too little.

But when I told them, they seems don’t have a clue.

They tend to misunderstood what I try to convey.

They always do.

Is it my mistake in using words?

Or in conveying my tone?

I felt very lonely.

It’s not because I build a wall,

I did build a bridge for them to cross over.

 But they did come with hostility.

I’m never stand on the same ground.

Ever.

Is I'm that weird?

Or maybe I just comfortable being unintelligible.

p.s: 

Don't worry, I remember what day is this. Even month before it's arrive. And in those month, I keep thinking whether I should make it casual by wishing you, but it would be awkward. Furthermore, the way I see it you try your best not to be in touch although it differs from me. I'm just glad you were born today 20 years ago and know me in those short moment. Sincere, from the boy who differs from the crowd. 

Knock knock.

Who's there? Oh it you. Didn't expect you here. It's good that u came. I've been waiting.

Current mood : Bagai tersedar dari lamunan yang panjang.

Current song : -

This is two completely different story that ended up meeting each other. The truth is, it has been so long. Years ago, there is something that I wanted to tell you. Somehow, it resurfacing after a deep long rest far underground. I did not know why, what or when. It just did. You are someone that I look up into, particularly one of my subject. Somehow I didn't get how your behavior works. It tells me completely different tale. And you are somewhat different from others. I've been ignoring it for good, thats what I thought.  I can't find a reason why it resurface at this moment.

Then again, I always ended up knowing the reason it happen or I just want to believe it has one. And suddenly, late night around minutes ago, it knocks me. The feeling that I thought was gone came back and I kind of glad that it did. Cause it means that I still have a chance. And you have become the bridge that connects the why question. Cause you've change again. This time I found out that you are out of my league. And you still someone that I looked up into.

So, dear Allah. Please protects these feeling You have given me. Nurture it so that I can be on Your side. I'm afraid that I've gone too far from home until I forget the way back. But You always came to me, knocks some sense to me. Thank you Allah. Sadly, thank you is not enough.

p.s:

So who did you choose? A knight in shining armor with a white horse or a dark knight with unwavering faith.

Tell me. Wait, don't tell. I always known your answer.

Besi Benar.

Current mood : Strongly feeling well.
Current song : Fast Lane - Bad Meets Evil ft. Eminem, Royce Da 5'9

Hisap rokok time - time ada kipas kat sebelah memang syiok habis. Kalau ada bayu antartika lagi seronok. Well, ape yang aku buat tak tido - tido lagi time - time macam ni ek? Rutin harian. Bit by bit cuti ni aku nak jadi morning guy balik. A guy yang wakes at morning. Sebab once aku masuk part 6 nanti, for sure aku akan jadi musang balik. Enough of that, let me tell you what I did today.

Yup, u guess it right. I watch Real Steel today dekat City Square dengan Mr. Kay dan adiknya Hakim. Biar aku cerita tentangnya okay? Cerita ni yang menarik perhatian aku adalah of course Hugh Jackman. Kemudian  storyline die yang agak menarik. A change in boxing sport. Using robot, there is no limit in boxing. So the fight will get more imba. Hahahahaha. Tapi plot ceritanya masih boleh diagak. Graphicnya juga coolio. Masih ada sense of humor. Tak terlalu pressure, mudah nak faham plot cerita. So, kalau nak tau apa ceritanya, pegila tengok Real Steel tu sendiri. Hehehehehe...=)

p.s : 

I got to say, I've change in so many things on so many level. People around me doesn't see it because most of them are not staying long enough. And the change that I'm gonna talk about here is bravery. Okay, here's the thing. Dulu saat aku muda remaja kecik cemetot dan lain - lain, aku sangat segan untuk bertanya, terpulangla ape jenis soalan pun. But I realize today that popping a question doesn't kill me. Contoh mudah, aku ada rokok, lighter habis dan aku berada jauh dari kedai jual lighter. So, apa salahnye kalau aku terjumpa dengan mamat yang hisap rokok dan bertanye, "Bro, boleh pinjam lighter x?" takdenye mamat tu nak belasah aku dan lecture aku pasal keburukan merokok sebab die pun isap same kan? Paling tidak pun die kate, "Mane boleh pinjam, pinjam kene pulang, aku bagi je la." See, it doesn't kill to ask. So, today I pop a question. An imba question. Aku tak mati pun kan? Kalau aku mati sape yang tengah taip pos ni? Hahahahahaha. Funny.

But, my problem is....the word that I'm using is always the wrong one. Especially things that I'm hold faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar inside. My vocabulary is sucks when the time comes. Walaupun kadang - kadang bila aku nak berkata - kata tu aku rancang macam nak rak tentang ape yang aku nak kate. Well, sometime aku kene spontan and embrace whatever that comes. So, to future Fizzy : Go for it man, whatever you do although the world against it, do it man. Do what your heart tell. Ikut hati memang mati, so kita mati same - same la bro....=) Jangan ikut perut, nanti kabut. Uish. Bila sebut perut lapar la. Jom carik makanan kat rumah ni!!

The best way not to get your heart broken

is to pretend that you don't have it.

or so I've heard.

Jimba akhir semester.

Current mood : Lega sampai rumah.
Current song :

Pada jam hampir pukul 9 malam, telah sampai seorang jejaka ke rumah kesayangannya. Dan jejaka itu adalah aku. Sampai jugak kat teratak indah aku ni. Sampai je rumah, xsempat nak buat ape, peluk ibu dulu. Yela, dah tipu die kate balik minggu depan walaupun memang da dalam perjalanan balik pun waktu tu. Nasib baik xde pape berlaku. Cancel jadi anak derhaka tipu mak. Para pembaca, jangan tipu mak tau. Hohohohoho. Btw, pelik tak bile aku update blog ketika berada dirumah? Dulu aku pernah update bendalah ngek ni kat umah sebab ada broadband kat rumah, tapi kalini aku dapat update kerana atas ehsan Mr. Kay yang meminjamkan aku broadband beliau dan juga orang yang sama aku tumpang balik harini kerumah. Thanx Bro.

Btw, aku nak cerita dua perkara harini. Semalam aku pergi melaka. Overnight. Tengok wayang cerita Three Musketeer. Well, what can I say. Love the story, the effects used, and the actors. Rasa macam nak tengok lagi tapi macam membazir pulak kalau wat camtu. Maybe nak g tengok Real Steel pulak kot. Masih merancang. Habis tengok wayang tu, ingat nak balik terus, tapi macam rugi dah pergi jauh - jauh pastu balik gitu je. So, kitorang pun pergi Pantai Puteri. Dinner kat sane dan jalan menyusur pantai. Bapak romantik gile lah. Kalau keluar ngan perempuan, boleh kene tangkap basah, kalau berdua ngan lelaki boleh disalah anggap. Hahahahahahaha. In the end, we all are having a good time. Thanks semua.

Bila hamka kene basuh dengan aku. Hehehehehehehe.

Kepenatan sudah, terutama driver. Orang belakang macam aku tido je la. Hahahahahahaha. Sebelum balik tu, dalam pukul 2 lebih, lepak Pantai Klebang hisap shisha. Baru tau ada bisnes shisha kat situ. Murah pun murah. Rasa pun okay. 4 lebih, chow pulang ke rumah. 7.30 pagi baru aku tido kat umah. Penat. Hepi. =)

Yang keduanya, aku balik dari umah sewa berkemas bagai nak rak. hahahahahaha. Maka dengan selambe nye aku cakap yang rumah tu tak ada orang untuk sebulan akan datang. Kalau dah motor pun aku bawak masuk dalam rumah. Well, ni btol - btol dah end part 5. Here's a glance at my sweet - sweet home:

Barang - barang aku dan Mr. Kay

Dan ni la moto Ekang yang aku pinjam hari - hari.

p.s:

Yes, I always thought that things can't stay the same. Because I believe that everything will end. Even the good one. But one thing that I'm too sure that doesn't change. Yet. The butterfly when you are in front of me. That still didn't change. It stays and complicated things. Da-mn.

Well, mostly it did.

Goodbye Part 5.

Current mood: Choose to be happy.

Current song: Whatever song playing at Fly.fm

When I got something to say, I say it here. Very little I tell someone in my real life. Maybe it has many cons than its pros in doing this. But, it’s something that I can only do. I’m shit in telling things. Giving advice to myself is freakishly hard isn’t it?

I’m happy today, did you know why? Today is the day I’m no longer known as part 5 DIB student at UiTM Segamat. I’m going to be a part 6 student. That means it has been 3 years since I left pontian. Well, it’s true. I rarely went home without any reason. Holiday is only reason I’m going back. Because when I’m at home, all I think is getting some rest after another semester. But my parent absolutely doesn’t want to see me doing nothing at home. Tambahan pulak member – member dekat pontian kebanyakannya takde. Yang ada cuma si barua, itupun jarang ada kat pontian. Ntah ape die buat kat JB ye? Hahahahahahaha….as long as die tak buat benda – benda yang merbahaya takde hal lah. Caring jugak aku kat die. Hahahahahahahaha!

Another semester has passed. This semester is where I learn to be more responsible, maklumlah sejak jadi budak NR ni kan banyak bezanya. Well, bezanya ada dinyatakan di pos – pos yang lepas. Semester ni adalah satu semester dimana aku belajar membahagikan masa dalam hidup aku. Yeke? Macam sama je. Well, satu semester yang baru pada aku. Banyak benda baru yang aku belajar bila menjadi budak NR ni. A good thing and also a bad thing. It’s up to me to differentiate what’s best for me kan. No one else can decide it. Dan bile semester ini berakhir, tak dapat aku menyatakan betapa bersyukurnya aku masih bergelar student UiTM. Yang masih takde rekod jenayah or whatsoever. Kat UiTM ni aku low profile aje rupenye. Berbeza bile aku kat sekolah menengah yang sentiasa berada in the center of attraction. Yela, kelas aku kan banyak buat hal. Kawan – kawan aku yang terjal tu pun memang banyak yang mencipta nama untuk cikgu – cikgu sekolah ingat. Hahahahahaha. Well, tu cerita dulu. Sedar tak sedar dah bertahun aku meninggalkannya dan sekarang aku hampir meninggalkan zaman Diploma. Ya Allah, pantasnye masa berlalu. Kalau hidup aku berakhir disitu, tiada ape yang dapat aku banggakan dalam hidup aku. Malu jugak aku dengan orang – orang lain yang somebody. I’m nobody. Well, nobody is good enough for me. =)

Alhamdulillah. Bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi. Tu je yang mampu aku ungkapkan. Walaupun sebenarnya amat jarang aku mengucapkan kata syukur. Astagfirullah. Subhanallah.

Dan kepada budak – budak rumah, aku ucapkan sangat – sangat berterima kasih kerana banyak membantu aku dalam hidup aku sepanjang semester 5 ni. Aku ni memang tak tau macam mane nak ucapkan terima kasih kat diorang. Terutamanya Muller yang sentiasa ulang – alik bawak aku pergi kelas. Banyak duit minyak yang die langsung tak mintak. Wan yang sentiasa imba. Aku tak tau nak kate ape kat kau bro. hahahahahaha. Well, all I can say is tanpa kau something akan missing kat rumah sewa ni. Ekang yang bullshit, tanpa die tak ceria lah rumah ni. Lagi – lagi bila ada kayangan sekali. Memang meriah macam hidup ni takde masalah langsung. Tapi aku memang tak reti nak ucapkan terima kasih dekat diorang…=) Well, selamat berada di Part 6 guys.

And to my love life, it’s a very bullshit story. I can laugh about it all the time. Hahahahahahaha. Bile baca balik dan ingat balik ianya kelakar. Sedih, tapi menggelikan hati sebab apa yang aku buat tu memang kelakar…=) Well, life’s goes on and never stops. No matter how bullshit it become, how hurt I felt. All that will be a past and it will be memory that seems….how to put it delicately? Memorable. Hehehehehehehe…=)

And part 6, please be nice to me…=)

p.s: Today, no personal saying. Oh, I forgot. A liar knows another liar very well. And I’m a pretty good liar. I really am.

Hurt.

Current mood : Wait up, this is about it.
Current song : Airplanes – B.O.B ft. Hayley Williams

I’m a normal human being, have eyes that can see, have mind that can think and have feeling that can be hurt. But I see what I want to see, and think what I want to think. That’s why I’m hurt more than I should be. Since I’m still a kid, I learn to do what I want. But as I grow up, I learn what I want to do sometimes hurt people. So I learn to be emotionless. Someone who doesn’t show enough feelings towards almost everything. Soon enough, I realize I need to tell and show what I felt. But I forgot to learn how to tell and show my emotion. That’s why it’s hard for me to tell what my feelings are exactly.

Right now I don’t even know what my heart is trying to tell. My mind is absolutely clueless about my feeling. It’s a separate organ that maybe can’t figure out each other until the end. Maybe I’m sad, and no, it’s not hatred nor angry, maybe a bit jealous or maybe aku cuma kecewa dengan diri sendiri. I don’t even know the reason I’m being like this. I got three reasons:

The fact that I not the chosen one.  I’m not the one to turn into, I’m not the shoulder to cry on and I’m not anything. I’m just a simple friend, friend that only comes when are needed. Mostly aren’t.

The fact that I can’t make her happier than she is now and I never could do it. I’m helpless and can’t do anything about it. When she is with me, she won’t be happy like she is now. And she is happy now, her happiness is without me. So it hurt. Or

The fact that I can’t shake of this ineffable feeling off. It won’t go away like it should be. I try hard not to think, not to feel almost anything but the same feeling still lingered on and on. I’m so stupid in walking away. Very. Laugh at it.

So, which is it the reason that it hurts so much? I can’t tell, can you? Please do tell. 

I’m sorry for myself that my heart is so stupid.

And my heart is blaming my mind because it can’t think straight.

And my mind blames me for not being good enough.

Who should I blame? Myself.

And also, it's hurt when u are being not second, but near last to someone who u put first.

Examination Week.

Current mood : Well, I'm not really sure what my mood is called right now.

Current song : None

Well, hello there. And Hello October. A month that I will soon say goodbye to my Part 5. Yup, I am now officially going to Part 6. Insya-Allah. 

Well, let's see. I need to go through 4 effing paper before that. That is FIN, HR, IS and IT. I had just went through FIN. It is really funny. You know why? Becoming one of the highest mark really set me up and ready. But when the time of the final came, why is I felt like I am the most stupid creature in mathematics? Waktu tu aku rase kura - kura orang sebelah rumah pun tau matematik yang aku jawap dekat final. Hahahaha. That's funny. Life is. 

Then, HR. Oh, it's an easy paper. You read. You remember. You pour it in final. You forget. Easy kan? I read, I remember and when I try to pour it all in final I went ahead one step. I forget. Hahahahahahahaha. Yes, two Final had passed. and now it's up to me and only just me to get an better score in other paper. And Allah. 

Okay, let's go!!

p.s : 

1. I never thought that I can get over you. I did. But maybe I don't. I'm sure what I trying to say is I did. Or is it I didn't? Err....let's say fuck it! And smile...=)

2. Oh, what is number 2 again? I guess, I didn't have second personal saying today. Ciao amigo~