At long last.
After keeping myself from hurtful story out at bay.
I decided that I'll be true at my own journal.
Because in this journal where the truest me live.
I got my own crush.
For some time now.
Despite how many 'teman tapi mesra' friends I have.
My sole crush is still one.
But after quite some time.
I did not make any move.
To bring it up to next level.
Guess I am afraid.
So I wait, wait and wait.
But I wait for far too long.
Another guy came.
And make a move.
And weeks ago,
I got to know that,
someone will ask her for an engagement.
Yes, the door is not shut completely.
I did bring this to my mom.
But it did not help me much.
So I am alone at this.
I am hurt not because of this entirely.
But I am because I can't do anything about it.
And it's my fault in still being afraid.
Afraid of being hurt again.
Even after years has passed.
I am hurt because I am afraid of being hurt.
Ironic.
