Current mood : still ineffable
Current song : Yang Terindah - Dakmie
Pssst. Jangan tanye kenapa tiba - tiba aku dengar lagu melayu. Sebab pertama, aku shuffle 484 lagu dalam phone aku. Sebab kedua, member aku yang bercinta, aku pun terpengaruh sekali. Ceit. Well, best la lagu ni. Boleh watkan aku tertido selama 7 minggu tanpa bangun. Sirius.
Ehem. I really have forget how to tell people how I felt. REALLY. Sume blog ni punye pasal. Ape - ape trouble je aku letak kat blog ni. But I don't fully told what I felt here because it seems inappropriate. It have become my weakness, not telling people what I felt. Doesn't matter whether it is happiness, sadness or even emptiness. On the other hand, it also have become my greatest strength because emotional just only blocking my way to success. Although it consumes my humanity bit by bit. And I seems to lost a honest contact with people around me. Sometimes, I felt my life is A FUCKING LIE.
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| And I am 'this' near to lost my soul. |
Well, it's not entirely like that. But mostly. Because, at my place right now. All I can felt is hurt inside. Sometimes I forget how to laugh just because it is really funny. How fucked up is that? Why is that all I can felt is heartache? Let see. A ton of assignment. A really small amount of money. A just-around-the-corner Final. 3 tests next week. And I seems to face all these alone. I try to cry for specific help, but 'they' seems to hear nothing or they just don't care. Sinis sungguh kan. Ye. Aku sinis orangnya.
Then again, "Senyum kala kesusahan tanda ketabahan." - Raihan.
p.s : You seems to have a little space for me. But. Just but.
p.p.s : Although I've said no more p.s, but it still have. Her image just can't get out from my fucking mind.
