Current song : When The Sun Goes Down - Artic Monkey
Current mood : Pessimistic. I choose to be that way.
Remember how I always talk that I can do better in LAW? That my quiz is one of the highest in class? And my Test 1 is still the highest among boys in class? And my quiz 2 is 18 / 25 although I didn't read anything and take it unprepared? Well, in this post. Forget all about that. Forget I ever being optimist towards my LAW paper. Let starts with Test 2 that I take just now. Well, I can concludes in one word. Failure. Pretty simple-minded huh?
Okay, I admit that last semester I also thinks that I failed Macroeconomic subject but I made it, with flying color plak tu. hahahahahaha. But this time. Just this time. I am falling. And I am failing. No one ever thinks that when I say that I failed, this time I really failed. Ironically, when I've said I've failed two of my first test, no one ever believe me. And worst, when I really failed, langsung xde kata - lata semangat ke? The best joke I ever heard this semester. "Kau pun bodoh cam kitorang jugak rupanya. hahahahahaha." Well said right? Who knows that I'm crying lightning inside? [pengaruh monyet kutub la ni.] No one ever know. And if I didn't wrote this at this particular blog, no one will ever know. Even someone that always being beside me in this particularly room. kan?
Back to the story of my LAW second test. This time I guaranteed it. I'll failed. Well, it'll be a miracle if I pass kalau dah part B yang 100 marks tu aku langsung tak jawabkan? Seriously. It sucks when you fall. I rather have starts from the bottom than falling down. But, for three semester I've already achieved something that really hard to get but now I can only see the bottom where I'll hit the ground pretty hard. And pretty obvious why didn't I tell everyone what happen today, right? Cause everyone will just give their bullshit back at me. So, don't blame me when I become someone that don't really talk much about what happen emotionally.
I just wish that I had someone to talk with about many - many things. Oh well, seems that 'The One' is still pretty late to find me although I know she's running as fast as she can to reach me. Allah knows better kan? Just give me strength tuk hadapi pandangan - pandangan yang kurang selesa dari manusia - manusia di pentas dunia ini please?
p.s : Later lah aku cerita pasal seminar Business Communication yang telah membuatkan kelas aku xperlu menghadapi Mock Interview. Dimana seminar ini antara highlight event in Part 4. Sekarang xde mood + assignment yang belambak - lambak macam pasar lambak yang kene langgar todak. Pffft.
