In time of my hatred is fulfilling my skin.
The one and only that never failed me.
Even Once.
Oh, before that let me rewind why there is such hatred.
Once upon a time......ok, this is bullshit.
I should stop all the crap that took me 3 hours to create.
There is one person told me :
"Kau cuba sembunyikan apa kau rasa, and when u do.
Friends like me and him would hurt to see you like that."
Pada waktu itu, hati aku berbunga - bunga bagai disirami air mawar seharum kasturi.
Namun aku baru sedar air itu cuma air jampi yang kau dapatkan
kat bomoh berjanggut dan bermisai capang.
Serta perutnya mempunyai 3 lapisan keemasan
yang berada di depan sebuah kolej di Massachusetts.
Bagaimana aku tersedar?
Apabila aku sedang meronta - ronta kemarahan
sebagaimana aku telah coretkan disini beberapa hari lalu.
And all you got to say is :
"Aik, pagi - pagi dah buat luahan hati?"
Is that all you got?
What in the world make you have the guts and power
to say to me like that?
Really.
Jangan kau main - mainkan maruah / ego aku ini.
You know what sucks?
Realizing what you believe all this time
is complete and utter bullshit.
-500 days of summer-
Namun. Kembali pada apa yang aku cuba sampaikan hari ini.
All the hatred build inside all these past weeks.
Have gone.
Snap! Just like that.
Cuba teka sapa yang buat aku macam tu.
Awekssss?
Jauh panggang dari api.
Skandalsss?
Jauh api dari kerang bakar Rohaya.
Membersss?
Jauh sekali dari "Not really".
Jawapannya adalah seorang bapa.
Ayah aku sendiri menghantar sebuah kiriman pesanan ringkas.
Atau lebih dikenali sebagai "Short Messages Services"
Hanya 3 perkataan yang wat aku terkesima selama 3 jam.
"Ayah sayang awak"
Really dad?
I love you too dad.
Sooooo damn much!!
First time ever dad told me that he loves me.
Sounds funny kan.
But it's not.
Kata - kata cinta sebegini lebih hebat dari apa yang pernah aku terima sebelum ini.
Thanks dad. For being my dad.
Tak tau nak kate ape lagi kat ayah.
Family never failed me in times like this.
p.s :
When you think the world has turn its back on you,
look back: you most likely turned your back on the world.
