What should I felt when dad said so many times before:
"Dik, ayah nak tengok adik dengan selimpang merah tu.
Lagi 3 kali dekan je. Nanti konvo semua orang tepuk.
Ayah nak tengok, ayah nak orang tepuk tengok anak ayah."
And just then I got 2.81 this semester.
What should I felt. Damn, teary eye.
I try and try again to be strong. Again and again. And again.
Seems the universe keep pushing me. Away from everything.
Just one thing I want to prove to my dad.
Again and again. We can survive in banking.
Dad, you didn't make mistake when you choose banking for life.
I want to prove that I can do it too in banking.
How foolish am I, fighting whole universe. Alone.
And I can't ANC now. For sake of my dad. Sorry dad.
I really am. How should I felt dad?
When once I have been black sheep in the family?
Should I felt sad about it? Or being strong?
I'm confuse dad. I'm confuse....
