This is made out of boredom. Yes. I'm bored to death. After 3 final examination passed, I guess I got nothing to do. So here I am again. Btw, after I did a little soul searching the other day [hahahahaha], I just found out that I have days before all of sudden, I won't have any class, my friends are away, no classmate, no futsal, no badminton, no snooker, and all other little things that accounted for. Feels a little sad that good things always comes to a hard end. Some of my friends who did matter won't continue their studies and make these days are somehow the last days we met. So, how will I end my terms here?
Well, ending terms here is bad enough. I've gone through additional problem. Such as my finals sucks. For example, I didn't target an A for my recent paper at all. Heck, for a year after my broken down grade, I know that I did not go all out as I always have. Its just like I left my soul somewhere in the timeline. Seriously. I spend most of my time searching back where I left it and I just couldn't think where. My drive is slow, my resolution is not enough and my target is low. All I know, I did not set my standards hard enough. And to adding it, somehow socializing at time like this is bad timing. I mean, yes I scored beautifully in my first and a half year, but my grade is not at all excellent now. And they say I am a genius. Perli, memang tak faham atau puji tak kene tempat? *Sigh* And I say to myself, you my friends are not someone who matter. Don't make me start on friend who are always there only when final / assignment is approaching. Dumb.
Anyway, last few weeks I made an argument which is more awesome. Being with someone for a year or being with someone at every other day. I've heard some of sever and unsparing opinion from one of my friend who actually in a relationship for years. Really. And they say in relationship is one of the best thing can happen in life. That is from someone who are actually in relationship for years. But, not to mention also there is some good one in them. And also, I've heard from someone who are in a realtionship for months. You know what they say, all cliche' things from the book and every gooey and romantic crap they know. In the end, I got no argument left and leave the question as it always be. "Different for every people". *Sigh* Some people who are in relationship actually want to be single but won't. Vise versa. Why human never pleased with what they had? Dumber.
And lastly, at some point I felt really - really stupid doing some project who someday will ended up in an old cupboard. Again. Dumbest.
p.s:
I saw my friend getting a best days of his life knowing a girl and change his life. Good for him.
