Honestly, I really think of many many many many crap right now. I've been told that one of my great quality is patience. Is it? My whole life asked me not to get my hopes high and any expectations only will bring me down. Somehow I tend to forget all those thing that I learned through hardship and set myself free from my own mind. But reality always checks in. And when it does, I really regret getting my hopes high for nothing ergo everything shatters right in front of my own eyes.
All those thing about "God knows better" is part of my believes. Yet I'm just a humble human being that need to be satisfies and not just a robot that does not have any self-esteem. But lately reality just checks in and gave a truth that I can never avoid. As if I don't went through enough. Oh, I guess I don't and I happens to be here spurting all these crap for no reason. Know this, I have feelings too, I can get angry too, I can get mad too. I know I'm not at the center of any universe but at least use your eye before you talk and walk your talk.
