Notes.

And just when I thought that I got nothing to write. Actually I do, but I don't know where to start, what appropriates and what not. So then I'm here again, after I stop playing many games that I used to like cause I had too much free time. I think if I do another one month doing nothing, I start to literally devolving to another creature that much like unintellectual zombies. 

Here again, after went to a memorable place. Funny thing, since six years ago, at the exact same location, I'm discussing about exact same thing. Life. When I said discuss, I mean with friends. Takkan aku borak dengan batu pulak kan. Bila mengenangkan betape sedikitnya rakanku yang pernah melihat aku berbicara secara berkredibiliti, aku naik heran. Pernah juga ada sesetengahnya yang mengatakan aku ni nerd. Well, aku tak pernah salahkan sesiapa dan aku tak pernah berkata ia satu keburukan ataupun kelemahan. I live as a joker, as a guy who is fun, seen as a guy who don't talk much but can make them smile. Sometimes I've been seen as a joke. Practical joke. Most of my friends are classmates and were classmates. And their first impression on me is, "This guy is good, he's clever, funny, but not that attractive and not much likely love to smile." Yup, I've done the questionnaire. Just kidding. Hahahahaha.

Wait, what's my point again? Okay, this is useless. Aku cuma nak cakap aku baru balik lepak dengan Aniq dan Nazmi dekat tambak yang penuh dengan scenery laut berbatu, bulan yang mengambang, langit yang cerah dan angin yang dingin. Panjang pulak jadinya. Hish. Dan sejak dulu lagi tempat yang sama menjadi tempat aku , Malin dan Imran berdiskusi tentang perkara yang sama. Irony. Funny. Or just plain empty. Tajuk paling selalu dibicarakan adalah mengenal makhluk bernama perempuan. Misteri. Satu misteri even ayah aku pun susah nak ungkaikan. Hahahahaha. Okay, tak kelakar sebab ayah aku tak ada kene mengena pun.

Bukan itu yang aku nak ceritakan sebenarnya. Rasanya. Okay, nak sentuh sikit. We are the good guys who want to understands girls, comprehending the truth in every behavior at girls who we want to acknowledge and know better. But we've known and experienced something that we shouldn't have. The same pain that crumbles the very great city of Rome, the Achilles' heels. Okay stop. Karang makin panjang berjela - jela aku susah nak berhenti. And by this point, honestly I lost my point halfway. 

Actually, aku nak ingatkan diri aku yang sebenarnya aku ni seorang yang ingin mengingati semua perkara. Even a song remind me of every somebody. Example for my point. These are all notes yang ada dalam phone W995 aku yang dah rosak, ok balik, rosak dan dah ok balik tu [starts dari yang oldest]:

• Great mind thinks alike. - Aku sedar yang aku ada kawan yang boleh memikirkan perkara yang sama tanpa berbicara. Cukup awesome.
• Care too much hurts. - Mengingatkan aku where I always put others first instead of myself is a mistake.
• Truce. - Aku cuba untuk berbaik dengan kawan aku dengan menunggu 'truce declaration' dari dia.
• Wait for it. - Masih menunggu 'truce declaration'.
• Always have a backup plan. - 'Truce declaration' tak hadir tiba, get any backup plan?
• Tuhan sengaja mengingatkanmu dgn dosa - dosamu. - Oh, ni just a certain somebody yang kembali muncul dalam hidup aku tanpa diduga.
• Don't mess with someone who in mess. - Masih berbekas dengan kejadian diatas, kene pulak kawan aku yang aku tunggu 'truce declaration' tu buat kacau.
• Don't trust love. - Time ni aku tengah jiwa kacau.
• Smile while u stil can - Noticed, ni bukan aku yang buat. Waiting-truce-friend yang buat, noted die punye tulisan pun lain. Time ni kat Cameron.
• Don't blame them. They don't know. You don't tell. - Once aku sedar die ubah notes aku, aku cuma boleh ingatkan kat diri aku supaya jangan salahkan dia, dia tak tahu dan aku pula tak beritahu.
• Everything change. Question is, are you still care when it does? - Yang ni aku ingatkan kat diri aku tak semua orang masih sama jika aku sendiri telah berubah.
• You don't have time to listen to my whine. - Well, jarang sekali manusia yang ingin dengar bila aku ingin mengadu.
• Be the con criminal. Keeps the con. Leave the rest. - This is where I figure out that, con [stands for confident] is so important that it keeps me from wavering even in the blink of great pain inside.
• 7 days left. Be better. Make they proud. - This is a point where aku cuba nak berhenti smoke untuk entah keberapa kali.
• Remember. You are a lucky guy. - Time ni aku tengah jiwa kacau tapi aku dapat tengok my third shooting star in my whole life.
• Admit it. Cold-blood. Heartless. - Time ni nak dekat start final part 6. Aku tak kisah pasal truce-declaring-friend even dah nak graduate.
• What'll you get? - Time ni aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk melawan ketidakinginan aku menyiapkan final diabolical master plan.
• Jgn slide. - Oh, time ni handset aku rosak screen. 

This is all the exact copy of all my notes at my phone. This is what make my phone is priceless. Imagine when I lost my phone and laptop last year. All that stupid things is unmeasurable by money. Kalau hebat, silalah trace segala ape yang berlaku kat atas tu dalam blog aku. 

p.s:

What you didn't know, even I've stop loving you. You are still number one in my charts. A charts that filled with everyone that not in my family and not I acknowledge as just friends. That counts something. Oh god, why you.