Clashes of wish.

Semua 1. Tahun pun 2011.

Yay for me. Okay. LAME!! Anyway, bukan ini yang aku nak post kan. Kita start semula. Boleh? boleh la......=)

Current mood : Sedih malu - malu. wahahahaha.

Current Song : Open Your Eyes - Maher Zain.

A thing to say :

Atok, janganla atok wat something yang atok xslalu buat. Nanti kitorang semua sedih.

Saya rindu atok yang marah - marah, garang dan tegap macam askar.

tapi atok sekarang, asyik muram, sudah semakin tidak sihat dan makin kurus.

Cepat - cepat la sihat atok. Bergembiralah dekat Pahang sana.

Take care atok. We love you.

Even I had the power to choose my family, I choose what I had now.

Second thing to say :

The more far I get from it, the more tighter I hold to it. That's the perfect word for me right now. In the past, I have done many things. Many useless things. I left that world to merge into another world. Although this brand new worlds rejects me so much. I try and try again to fit into this world. This war between my inner self has been bad for myself. I tend to become who I'm not. But I try to change for better good. and better future. What I didn't realize is, it is my greatest desire to going back to that world again. But I can't go back. Not until what I've lost and gained to be where I am now. I just wish that there will a permanent barrier to prevent me from going back again. Right now I just can't find one. It's just when you put two thing that really different into a box and merge it into each other. They will fight and the dominant will take over. But the other will not go away, it's stays and get ready to strike again. Just like Linkin Park Vs Maher Zain. Damn. I just want to be better. And the worlds keeps their act against me. I just wish my Iman is stronger.